remembering | michael jackson

i woke up expecting to just catch bits and pieces of mj's memorial (i assumed it was done hella early).

how perfect that i woke up in time to catch the entire thing.

i think...his death has been surreal...even today...and it didn't hit me until i realized his brothers were carrying michael's casket into the spotlight at staples center. wow.

i teared up | cried | laughed | smiled | reminisced the whole time.

didn't expect to cry, heh.

many moments were perfect tribute. these were the most touching (to me):
- usher's performance
- jennifer hudson
- queen latifah reciting dr. maya angelou's poem
- brooke shields
- john mayer on the guitar (i LOVED this)
- jermaine
- heal the world (judith hill is my new fav artist)
- smokey robinson
- shaheen jafargholi

didn't expect paris to speak, and when she did, like many, it was all over and i teared.

i love michael for his gift of music, entertainment and humanitarianism.
i'll remember him for that.

<3

life|resolutions - half year|update

happy july!

i figured i would check myself on my resolutions. and to be honest i dont think i've been too hardcore. but it's ok. there's still another 6 months :D

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1. be healthier. by being watchful of what i eat and exercising.

• i think im doing pretty good here. been maintaining my weight so far and give myself some cheat days. next 6 months...i need to lose!

2. be quick to forgive. because life is too short to be angry for too long.

• i definitely give myself atleast 12hours to 1day of anger. and then it's like...dammit. i forgive you =x

3. read. because i miss reading for fun. and i would like to extend my vocabulary.

• i know i read a few books. angels&demons and hp6. more to come :D

4. blog. daily reflection is good for the soul. and i want to remember as much as i can about my life.

• ok this one i need to work one.

5. sharpen my skills. because not having a job sucks right now but if i don't continue to practice those skills i may never find the job i want.

• this one too =x

6. be closer with God. by continuing to go to church every sunday and by reading the bible.

• i've been consistent...but i think i'll add more reading (stopped after lent. bad!)

7. be smart(er) with money. because i've been way too careless before and i need think about what i actually need versus what i just want.

• i've been getting better at this. thinking before buying. need vs want. i'm getting there!

8. be happy. no regrets. take life as it is. everything happens for a reason. ultimate life mantra.

• definitely.

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go me! haha.

i [love|miss] my gay

we had a 90 minute conversation on the speculation of gayness of x; whom we have dubbed 'moho'.
MoHo7 to be exact.
and our conversations are duly noted as "OperationMoHo7."

i cant or shouldnt say much.
except that this operation will definitely be interesting.

our conversation made me miss him. and i love him for his madness. haha.

i love | shia

the end. haha.

ok, on the real though?
i do love him. and i wish people didn't hate him and call him a douche bag so much. but its ok.

some say he's a bad actor. but can a bad actor really pull of losing your mind to prime signs?

whatever.

transformers 2 was...pretty good. definitely bigger, "more" in all aspects in comparison to the first movie...but i don't think it's gonna be my favorite movie for the summer.

watched it in IMAX. i dont know if it was worth it.

someone said they liked it better than dark knight. i disagree.

in conclusion...
love you shia, but im more excited to watch hp6.

oh and isabel lucas? WTF.

(really)theend.

i | feel:

frustrated.
when it comes to my internet service.
boo at&t. but i looked up comcast and it aint that great either.
hopefully it will be better saturday.

girly.
and hyper-effeminate.
when i get my nails done.
but man did i need that shiatsu massage.

FAT.
when i eat unhealthy.
but sometimes i can't help it. YUM.

excited and childlike.
when i step into an office supply store. sometimes i don't know what to do with myself.
i love postits?
when i get new toys.
my new camera came in today. i LOVE it.

giddy.
when i'm watching sytycd.
i love dancing.

tired.

so goodnight <3.

words | to live by

<quote>
Today is the day

Mend a quarrel. Search out a forgotten friend. Dismiss suspicion and replace it with trust. Write a love letter. Share some treasure. Give a soft answer. Encourage youth. Manifest your loyalty in a word or deed.

Keep a promise. Find the time. Forego a grudge. Forgive an enemy. Listen. Apologize if you were wrong. Try to understand. Flout envy. Examine your demands on others. Think first of someone else. Appreciate, be kind, be gentle. Laugh a little more.

Deserve confidence. Take up arms against malice. Decry complacency. Express your gratitude. Worship your God. Gladden the heart of a child. Take pleasure in the beauty and wonder of the earth. Speak your love. Speak it again. Speak it still again. Speak it still once again.
</quote>

this is how i want to live. and day by day...slowly but surely...i think i am getting there :D

summer movie | madness

i FINALLY watched star trek!
and it was bomb.com

i couldn't ask for more. and now im tempted to watch some old episodes and movies, hah.

the longer trailer for HP6 has me freakin EXCIIIITED and i can't wait!!! aaaaahhh.
not to mention REVENGE of the FALLEN.

watching UP tomorrow.

i love summer <3