i know you mean well | but

dont. just dont.
stop.

you have no idea what its like.
try to emphasize. please.
and stop badgering me about it every time you get a chance to breathe one word to me.

i'd rather you not bring it up.
i'll bring it up when there are updates. i promise. really.

i need to do this on my own.

breaking | point

my spirit is just completely crushed right now.

and while today wasn't one of those bad days (overall)...i think it was just the accumulation of several low points and keeping those feelings pent up for so long that i've reached my limit.

i had to let out these emotions today.

so i let out some tears.

i know i should talk it out...but i feel stupid and shamed. i want to be able to deal with this on my own.

i used to go to (la jolla) shores to clear my mind and de-stress. i wish i had an equivalent safe haven here.

so here's praying that this too shall pass.

gettin my | bling bling baubles | on

i attended an advanced wire working class today.
i was the youngest by a longrun.
i think that's supposed to make me feel good...right? haha.

anywho...i took a wire working class back in san diego and it has been good to me but ive been itching to get better at it and a learn a few more things.

well...
i now know how to make my own headpins AND jumprings! but i think im gonna lay off the jumprings...WAAAYYY too much work.
we ran out of time to learn the "basket weave"...so hopefully i can catch the instructor at another time.

the necklace i ended up making from the bracelets we worked on in class (got it? haha) is probably the most expensive thing i've made...well maybe aside from the bracelet i made in my first wire working class haha.

pikachures!
/*oh and that music note looking thing...i made that! im so proud of myself :D*/





and of course they are on my fb also [click|here]

yay <3

irritable | routine

i don't mind routine.
wake up. eat. stuff. eat. stuff. eat. stuff. sleep.
repeat.

routine is life.

but routine conversation? especially ANNOYING routine conversation?
please. don't torture me.

every(work)day, my dad greets me when he gets home from work.
normal right?
this is what he says when he sees me: "what are you doing?"
oh i dont know. how about a "hi" instead?

every(work)day, my mom calls the house phone to tell us she's on the way home.
normal right?
this is how my dad answers the phone: "are you home?" "no? aww..."
how about...she does this EVERYDAY. she's not home yet.

how does she handle this?
its so annoying.

love him. but argh.

and as with routine...
i'll probably be just as irritated tomorrow.
that's a routine i'd like to break, thanks.

bling bling | baubles

i love alliteration ;D

anywho.
it's been maybe a year since i've made anything new...and i finally got re-inspired to work on some jewelry that have just been kinda sitting in my art|project box.

if i were to have a business...bling bling baubles would probably be its name, haha!

before!

after!

definitely more to come!
im excited hehe.
ill probably post here...but just in case i forget or get lazy...
pictures will be up on my fb [blingblingbaubles]

catchy isn't it? ;D
<3

3.5wk | life recap

man. i super fail with this blog. haha =x
and i dont even update my fb as much anymore (sans status of course)...

anywho.
so here's what ive been up to since my last update:

- american idols tour 2009 pix|ici
- harry potter and the half blood prince screening
- harry potter and the half blood prince midnight showing
//yes there's a difference, haha!
- red velvet cream puffs take 2 pix|ici
- academy of science
- sockhop hosted by funksf
- comic con 2009 pix|ici
- harry potter and the half blood prince IMAX
- gapa runway 21

i think those are all the significant things. i dont even know how to elaborate on them all.

i guess ive been pretty busy ;D

random notes related to said events:
- my love for harry potter >>>>>> my love for twilight. as evidenced by the number of times ive seen the 6th movie. but im still excited for the new moon movie...all thanks to seeing the panel at comic con haha.
- ai tour felt RUSHED...im not sure why but it just did. and i didn't get to see adam. boo.
- going to see the sytycd tour! excitedish. haha. there's something about this season of ai|sytycd that just doesn't grab me as much =\
- red velvet cream puffs were definitely better looking this time around...but im still working on the perfect recipe. i might revert back to (my) traditional cream puffs...someday...
- comic con is MADNESS. but it was totally worth it this year.
- i still love|hate boys that dance. haha!
- gapa runway FTW. im such a hag. lol.

theend.
im not gonna promise anything, but i hope i blog again sooner than later ;D

red velvet cream puff | experiment | take 1

so i make cream puffs. and i think they're pretty awesome.
and then red velvet cake (or cupcakes) become the rage (even though they're technically a classic, right?).

so then i thought...
what if i make red velvet cream puffs?!

this week wasn't the first time i thought about it, but today was my first day of action.

result? quasi-fail.

baked twice today, thinking the first time went wrong because i used a different butter...when in fact...i think im almost certain that it was my timing.

they look weird.
not so puffy and the white chocolate drizzle on top in fact looks like mozzarella cheese (hah!).
but if you close your eyes...they taste pretty good :D

i took pictures...but i don't feel like posting them. i am shame.

round 2 this weekend!