red velvet cream puff | experiment | take 1

so i make cream puffs. and i think they're pretty awesome.
and then red velvet cake (or cupcakes) become the rage (even though they're technically a classic, right?).

so then i thought...
what if i make red velvet cream puffs?!

this week wasn't the first time i thought about it, but today was my first day of action.

result? quasi-fail.

baked twice today, thinking the first time went wrong because i used a different butter...when in fact...i think im almost certain that it was my timing.

they look weird.
not so puffy and the white chocolate drizzle on top in fact looks like mozzarella cheese (hah!).
but if you close your eyes...they taste pretty good :D

i took pictures...but i don't feel like posting them. i am shame.

round 2 this weekend!

remembering | michael jackson

i woke up expecting to just catch bits and pieces of mj's memorial (i assumed it was done hella early).

how perfect that i woke up in time to catch the entire thing.

i think...his death has been surreal...even today...and it didn't hit me until i realized his brothers were carrying michael's casket into the spotlight at staples center. wow.

i teared up | cried | laughed | smiled | reminisced the whole time.

didn't expect to cry, heh.

many moments were perfect tribute. these were the most touching (to me):
- usher's performance
- jennifer hudson
- queen latifah reciting dr. maya angelou's poem
- brooke shields
- john mayer on the guitar (i LOVED this)
- jermaine
- heal the world (judith hill is my new fav artist)
- smokey robinson
- shaheen jafargholi

didn't expect paris to speak, and when she did, like many, it was all over and i teared.

i love michael for his gift of music, entertainment and humanitarianism.
i'll remember him for that.

<3

life|resolutions - half year|update

happy july!

i figured i would check myself on my resolutions. and to be honest i dont think i've been too hardcore. but it's ok. there's still another 6 months :D

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1. be healthier. by being watchful of what i eat and exercising.

• i think im doing pretty good here. been maintaining my weight so far and give myself some cheat days. next 6 months...i need to lose!

2. be quick to forgive. because life is too short to be angry for too long.

• i definitely give myself atleast 12hours to 1day of anger. and then it's like...dammit. i forgive you =x

3. read. because i miss reading for fun. and i would like to extend my vocabulary.

• i know i read a few books. angels&demons and hp6. more to come :D

4. blog. daily reflection is good for the soul. and i want to remember as much as i can about my life.

• ok this one i need to work one.

5. sharpen my skills. because not having a job sucks right now but if i don't continue to practice those skills i may never find the job i want.

• this one too =x

6. be closer with God. by continuing to go to church every sunday and by reading the bible.

• i've been consistent...but i think i'll add more reading (stopped after lent. bad!)

7. be smart(er) with money. because i've been way too careless before and i need think about what i actually need versus what i just want.

• i've been getting better at this. thinking before buying. need vs want. i'm getting there!

8. be happy. no regrets. take life as it is. everything happens for a reason. ultimate life mantra.

• definitely.

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go me! haha.

i [love|miss] my gay

we had a 90 minute conversation on the speculation of gayness of x; whom we have dubbed 'moho'.
MoHo7 to be exact.
and our conversations are duly noted as "OperationMoHo7."

i cant or shouldnt say much.
except that this operation will definitely be interesting.

our conversation made me miss him. and i love him for his madness. haha.

i love | shia

the end. haha.

ok, on the real though?
i do love him. and i wish people didn't hate him and call him a douche bag so much. but its ok.

some say he's a bad actor. but can a bad actor really pull of losing your mind to prime signs?

whatever.

transformers 2 was...pretty good. definitely bigger, "more" in all aspects in comparison to the first movie...but i don't think it's gonna be my favorite movie for the summer.

watched it in IMAX. i dont know if it was worth it.

someone said they liked it better than dark knight. i disagree.

in conclusion...
love you shia, but im more excited to watch hp6.

oh and isabel lucas? WTF.

(really)theend.

i | feel:

frustrated.
when it comes to my internet service.
boo at&t. but i looked up comcast and it aint that great either.
hopefully it will be better saturday.

girly.
and hyper-effeminate.
when i get my nails done.
but man did i need that shiatsu massage.

FAT.
when i eat unhealthy.
but sometimes i can't help it. YUM.

excited and childlike.
when i step into an office supply store. sometimes i don't know what to do with myself.
i love postits?
when i get new toys.
my new camera came in today. i LOVE it.

giddy.
when i'm watching sytycd.
i love dancing.

tired.

so goodnight <3.

words | to live by

<quote>
Today is the day

Mend a quarrel. Search out a forgotten friend. Dismiss suspicion and replace it with trust. Write a love letter. Share some treasure. Give a soft answer. Encourage youth. Manifest your loyalty in a word or deed.

Keep a promise. Find the time. Forego a grudge. Forgive an enemy. Listen. Apologize if you were wrong. Try to understand. Flout envy. Examine your demands on others. Think first of someone else. Appreciate, be kind, be gentle. Laugh a little more.

Deserve confidence. Take up arms against malice. Decry complacency. Express your gratitude. Worship your God. Gladden the heart of a child. Take pleasure in the beauty and wonder of the earth. Speak your love. Speak it again. Speak it still again. Speak it still once again.
</quote>

this is how i want to live. and day by day...slowly but surely...i think i am getting there :D