it doesn't | FUCKING | help

[vent blog]

"you're eating AGAIN?"
fuck you. really? i mean fuck. im TRYING here and when i fucking slip up once because i want to/need to you go and make me feel like the fattest person on the planet.
GOD!!!
i hate crying because of this. don't you know that it HURTS? that it doesn't FUCKING HELP me TRY to be healthy when you don't even TRY to be fucking supportive?

i wish you would read this...but i don't have the balls to show this to you.
the tears will stop...and i'll forgive you because obviously i love you.

i just wish you could understand...ease up a little...THINK once before you say shiet...be more sensitive...more EMPATHETIC...that's it...cuz i know you can be sensitive...but you need to understand where I come from.

this is one of the reasons why i wish i wasn't home.

[/end vent blog]